The worst thing about maternity leave is going back to work and even worse than that is going back to work, looking after a baby and having chronic pain!
A couple of weeks ago I agreed to do a few keeping in touch days before I return later this year. It was a decision I spent ages mulling over. Leaving Baby E for a whole day, even if she was with daddy, was the scariest thing I’ve faced since becoming a mother. The guilt of leaving her, worrying if she will miss me (even though I knew she wouldn’t) and worrying how my body would cope with a full day of work after being at home for months.
Leaving her wasn’t as hard as I thought as I knew she was safe and I had a good day at work. The adults I support were so happy to see me and it was nice to have adult conversation. On the fibro side it was hell!!! My feet killed, I ached from head to toe and the fatigue was a killer. Luckily daddy was home to help but the second day he wasn’t and it was so tough. All I wanted to do was sleep but I had a baby to look after.
This is going to be a massive learning curve when I return to work properly and I think it’s going to take a lot of trial and error to manage work, baby and day to day life. But I will keep you updated on the journey and any tips I find for dealing with this. If anyone else has any tips for the initial return to work with fibro please let me know!!
I’ve not had chance to write over the last couple of weeks but thought I’d share the link to my old blog if anyone fancies taking a look at some of the posts as I feel many are still relevant to how I feel today.
My Fibro a New Beginning
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Checkout my new site page to find out about fibromyalgia, my symptoms and how I was diagnosed.
So I thought my first post should be a little introduction to me and my family and a short summary of what I intended to focus on with this blog.
Mummy E – That’s me! I describe myself as a 20-something year old but in reality everyday is bringing me ever so closer to 30. I am a fully qualified teacher and have worked in both mainstream and special education schools. Before becoming a mum, and due to ill health, I worked as a supply teacher and initially volunteered at a group for adults with learning difficulties and disabilities which quickly turned into my main job and now I am a senior support worker there. I can whole heartily say both these jobs are the best in the world! As the blog title suggests, I have fibromyalgia (as well as a few other health conditions) and have suffered with this for several years. I am now adjusting and adapting how I cope living with a chronic illness and having a baby. I enjoy music, books, art, crafts and spending time with family and friends. I’m not very outdoorsy but I’m hoping to get out more now I have a baby, if my body allows it.
Daddy E – Daddy is an amazing and supportive husband. He is our rock and for me he has been there to pick me up when I’ve hit rock bottom. It’s not easy being the husband of a spoonie ( I’ll explain that term later) but he is always there looking after me. He is an amazing daddy and Baby E loves spending time with him, her little face lights up whenever he is around. Daddy enjoys outdoorsy, adventurous activities (which I leave to him and his friends) and chilling on the Xbox or computer and reading. Daddy doesn’t really like social media so probably won’t feature much.
Baby E – Baby E is currently 5 months old and is perfect in every way. She is the baby we thought we might not have (more on fertility issues later). She is developing well and growing up so fast. I didn’t really believe anyone when they said she won’t be a tiny, cuddly baby for long and now I do! She suffers from reflux, which is medicated, and Cows Milk Protein Allergy or CMPA. I’m hoping to share our experiences with getting diagnosed and how they impact life day to day, especially as she is about to start weaning.
I used to blog under the alias ‘My Fibro a New Beginning’ but decided a fresh start was needed with a new blog, new look and new focus as I’d lost my motivation and passion for writing and dropped out of all social media relating to this. After speaking to my best friend, who is a literary genius, came up with the name to represent the new blog. (You can check her blog out here). I want this space to be a place where experiences can be shared. My focus, currently, is to share information on fibromyalgia and chronic illness, PCOS/fertility, living with a baby who has CMPA and reflux and to share the ups and downs of life with a chronic illness and a baby. I want to share ideas, products, tips and tricks I’ve found help or we love.
I’m a fibro-mum taking one day at a time!